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{Guest Post} A Miracle

Austin Reed McEvoy came into the world on May 27, 2005 in Cincinnati, Ohio.  There is something so special and unique about the day your first-born enters the world.  After a fairly easy pregnancy and 9 painful hours of labor, my husband and I welcomed little Austin (well, not so little, more like 9 lbs. 5 oz!) into our lives.  I will always remember that moment the doctor placed him into my arms.  It was such a surreal and out-of-body experience.  For us, we felt that this was the most memorable and important day of our lives (other than the day we got married).  Here we were–blessed with one of God’s children and not only that, but a child of God that was sent to US, not anybody else– to be taken care of, taught, loved, and raised.  You would think that the weight of that responsibility would seem daunting at first.  But for some strange reason, at that moment, it wasn’t to us.  It just felt RIGHT and we were ready for that responsibility in our lives.  I can’t explain in words the emotions and instant LOVE that overwhelmed us as we held our sweet infant in my arms.  It was such a powerfully spiritual moment for us and we were suddenly overcome with gratitude and joy for this child of ours.

I wish I could say that this is where the story ended.  That we had our “fairytale” moment of relishing in the joy of holding our infant in our arms.  But that moment suddenly turned in the wrong direction when the doctor and nurses noticed a LARGE, dark purple, raised growth on his lower right back.  This was not expected or detected in utero and neither the doctor or nurses knew what it was.  I remember the first night in the hospital being not one of relishing in this beautiful baby, but one of worry, panic, and fear of the unknown.  Less than 24 hours after the birth and Austin was transferred to the Cincinnati Childrens Hospital NICU where a speciliast would see him.

Austin was in the NICU there for 10 days.  Not exactly the way you had anticipated and expected to start your first week with your baby.  It was probably the most sleepless and worrisome week of our lives.  Test after test, Austin was picked and prodded to determine what this “THING” was on his back.  At 5 days old, a surgeon did a biopsy on the growth on his back, in which he lost so much blood, that he had to have two blood transfusions and resuscitate him after he stopped breathing during surgery.  That was not a fun day for us, but fortunately, we were unaware that this was happening until after the surgery was completed and he was finally stable again!  When we got the results back from the biopsy a couple of days later, Austin was diagnosed with a rare, aggressive vascular tumor (but benign) that typically can trap platelets from the rest of the body and can cause serious illness, and in some instances, death.  The crazy thing was that his doctor is one of a FEW leading physicians and experts in the field of rare vascular tumors in the WORLD.  And she just so happened to be at this particular children’s hospital and we just happened to be living in Cincinnati while my husband was in grad school.  Coincidence?  I think not.  I know for a certainty that the Lord had led us there for a reason.  If Austin had been born elsewhere, chances were that he would’ve been misdiagnosed at first and not received the proper care.  Because we were able to diagnose the issue from the start though, we were able to begin the right treatment.  Austin was fortunate enough to respond to the first-line of treatment, which typically only works in about 20% of patients.  We were blessed that not only did he respond, but he remained completely healthy and normal the entire time he was on the medicine.  By the time Austin turned 1 years old, the tumor or lesion was almost completely gone and all you could see was an indentation of where the tumor used to be and the scars from the biopsy.  His doctor was amazed by his success and the results of the medicine.  In our hearts though, we knew that it wasn’t all the medicine.  It was Heavenly Father’s will and way that Austin would continue to thrive and live.  Was it a miracle?  We would like to believe that it was.  Yes, HE is our miracle.  And we are so eternally grateful for our Lord’s hand in that trying time in our lives.

Parenthood is exactly what they say, “It’s the most difficult, yet rewarding experience of your life.”  It definitely tries your patience and it doesn’t come without many trials, errors, sweat and tears.  BUT it is also the most precious, amazing, wonderful, and gratifying experience that one can go through in this life.  It is simply an extension or understanding of our Heavenly Father’s love for us.  I honestly believe that there is no other way to even somewhat comprehend the unconditonal love that God has for us until we become a parent.  It puts everything in perspective and it changes us for the good.  Parenthood teaches us, stretches us, and shapes us to become better human beings, and to become more like God.  Simply put, it helps us become more selfless and Christ-like.  No longer are we thinking about ourselves first.  Suddenly, we would do ANYTHING for our children, even sacrifice our own lives for them.  And that is exactly what Jesus Christ did for us when he died on the cross for us and atoned for our sins.  It is a beautiful thing and it’s exactly what life is all about.

Christina

A Letter

Dear Baby,

Yesterday I went in for some tests to monitor your little heartbeat since it was your due date and my doctor wanted to make sure you’re doing okay. When I walked into the room for the Non-Stress Test (NST), I could hear about three other babies’ heartbeats being monitored. It was quite a special room.

First, they did an ultrasound to measure all the liquid pockets. I got to see your spine, your feet (jabbing me right under my ribs, as usual), you practicing your breathing, and your whole body shake when you got the hiccups.

Next, they put these bands around my belly to watch your heartbeat and to monitor my contractions (which I didn’t even know I was having, I thought I was just having an upset stomach lately haha). Your heartbeat was strong and it accelerated well when you moved. It was pretty incredible to see the direct response of the heartbeat when you would kick and squirm. But then whenever I would have a contraction your heartbeat would drop. The nurse assured me you were okay, but it was something they wanted to look at more. At one point it dropped from about 160 to 109 and it got me so worried and scared that something was not right. It amazes me how I can feel so much love and protection for you even though I’ve never met you.

So, they moved me over to the hospital where I’m planning on delivering you, just in case they would need to induce me. Because the nurse told me I shouldn’t be concerned about the heartbeat dropping and that it could just mean my placenta is starting to fail since it’s the end of the pregnancy, I felt pretty calm. It meant that you might actually have gotten to come on your due date. I sat in the hospital room by myself texting my friends and family about what was going on and anxiously waiting to hear if they would let me go home or if I was going to meet you sooner than expected.

After monitoring you for another couple of hours, the doctors decided you were doing enough good things (good resting heartbeat, strong acceleration) to let me go home and that on Monday they would check again to make sure you’re doing okay. Although I was kind of relieved to get to go home and take a nap after the emotional day, I was also very disappointed that I was going to have to wait longer to meet you.

For the past 24 hours or so, I’ve been feeling kind of queazy and starting to notice my contractions more. But I’m still feeling you kick me really high and the contractions aren’t close or painful yet, so I’m guessing you’ll be here later next week. Don’t you know that it’s a lot more fun out here? You have a lot of people who can’t wait to meet you and your mom is getting quite emotional. In fact, last night I was watching a movie where a couple got to hold their newborn and I just burst into tears and said out loud, “I want my baby!” Good thing no one was around, they would have thought I was crazy! But we will meet soon enough.

Until then,

Your Anxious Momma

{Guest Post} The Hardest and Best Job

It’s funny how something clicks in every pregnant woman’s mind around seven or eight months. There is no longer deathly fear of trying to fit a bowling ball through a pin hole. There is more excitement to meet her sweet baby and no longer feel 25 lbs overweight.

I remember arriving at the hospital for my daughter’s birth. I think once you enter the hospital your adrenaline kicks in and your brain shuts down. To be honest until now, 7 months later, I don’t think I’ve actually sat down and thought about how I felt during the whole experience. I remember being very scared and worried in the beginning. The baby’s heart rate kept dropping so they had me on oxygen and kept having me turn different directions every time the alarm would sound and her heart would start to drop. They also asked me if I had felt my baby move that day and I hadn’t. I was so concerned for my daughter and at that moment I would do anything in the world to have her arrive safe and healthy.

Once the doctor assured me the baby was fine and I would be having her that day, Pitocin was plugged in and my fear turned to pain. My epidural was suppose to happen at the same time as the Pitocin but the anesthesiologist got caught up in a delivery and was slow getting to me. During that excruciating hour I filled my time yelling at my husband, taking deep breaths, pushing the nurse’s button, and praying over and over to just make it through one more contraction. Finally pain turned to relief as I got my epidural just in time for the pushing to start. At this point I have no clue what I was feeling, all I could think was “don’t look stupid in front of the doctor remember to push like they taught in the birthing class.” HA! I couldn’t be more wrong. After one birthing class push the doctor said I was doing it all wrong and told me the right way.

My daughter was born very shortly after but had a hard start to life. I remember laying there totally unaware of any sound but the silence that should have been filled with crying. Finally after what felt like hours she cried and cried and cried. They put her on my chest and a moment that should have been filled with joy quickly vanished as the nurse took my daughter away worried that she wasn’t getting enough oxygen. My husband followed the baby as they took her to the nursery and for the first time I was left to think about what had just happened in the last few hours. I didn’t even know what my daughter looked liked or what it felt like to hold her. All alone in my hospital room I started crying. Finally I pulled myself together and the nurses let me go see her once my legs were un-numb.

The next morning she was transferred to the NICU of a bigger hospital, sedated, and put on a ventilator. The first time I got to actually hold my daughter she was just over a day old, had two IVs in her arms, one IV in her belly button and three other monitors stuck to her chest. I cried. Here were finally the feelings that every mother is suppose to feel right after birth when they hold their child for the first time. She was mine, all mine, and now it was my job in life to make her life the best. Ever since that day I have had the hardest and best job that I could ever have.

Allison

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It’s a Party in the L-A-O

A couple weeks ago, my old coworkers from the LAO (and besties) threw me a Last-Hurrah/Girl’s-Night/Baby-Shower. We munched on a LOT of delicious desserts, laughed about all of the funny times we had at the library, and, of course, got our Just Dance 3 on.

To end the night, they gave me a bunch of adorable books (so appropriate since we all worked at the library together) and Jeanette also surprised me with Toms for the baby that she’ll be able to wear next year. Seriously, high top pink Toms? My baby is going to be better dressed than me!

Anyway, thanks guys! It was a wonderful night and made me miss working at the LAO!

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Reality

This week has been rough.

My due date is… well… today, now… and I went in for my weekly appointment on Monday. Last week he told me there was no progress. I wasn’t dilated or effaced at all. I was disappointed and so I decided not to get my hopes up that it would happen this week and so I prepared myself just in case the doctor would tell me the same news.

Well, he did tell me the same news. Actually he said jokingly, “If it were possible for you to go backwards, then that’s where you’d be.” He then told me that I might want to prepare myself mentally for a c-section and why that might happen.

In the doctor’s office, I took it all very well. I shook my head, smiled, and laughed at his jokes. But I barely made it out the door without bursting into tears.

A c-section? I hadn’t prepared for that at all. In all the books I read, I skipped over that section. The baby’s been in the right spot. I’ve been very healthy and so has the baby. It’s not in the birth plan! I want to experience labor, the way I’ve planned it.

I finally got a hold of my mom and I cried like a little baby, she probably thought something was horribly wrong. I told her the situation and then said,

“And the worst part is, I cut off all my hair!”

That’s when the tears turned into laughter because I realized I was being so ridiculous.

(Sidebar: I went and cut 5 inches or so off of my hair as soon as my appointment ended. If the baby situation wasn’t going to change, I had to change SOMETHING in my life. Oh, and I actually love it, even though I complained at first about it.)

Anyway, after talking to my mom, my sister, a couple of friends, and my husband, I knew it wasn’t the end of the world AND remembered that I have so many people who care about me.

Today I went to the temple, because I go in for some routine tests tomorrow just to make sure the baby is doing okay. If for some reason the tests fail, then I’ll have to be induced and most likely have to have a c-section tomorrow. But if I pass the tests, then I can wait until next week and the chances of having a c-section go way down. It was wonderful to feel the spirit and to not have to think about all of this right for a couple of hours. It also made me realize that this is not a HUGE deal, and it shouldn’t get me down. In fact, if this is my biggest worry–just that a c-section MIGHT occur–then I have things pretty good. I’m able to get pregnant, my pregnancy has been very easy, and no matter what, I’m going to have a beautiful baby girl in my arms any day now.

Wow, I can’t believe it’s December 1st.

{39 Weeks: Ready to POP}

{Guest Post} I love being a Mother.

One of my most sacred moments of motherhood happened seconds after my precious Evette was born. My labor was a long grueling process, roughly 39 hours of hard labor – I was quite ready for our Little Girl to join us.

Just after Evette entered this world our midwife checked her breathing and then immediately put her on my chest. I was in complete awe- She was here! This was my daughter. I cried and laughed and cried some more. The very moment that she was placed in my arms something changed in me, it was so powerful, almost painful. I knew from that moment forward I would do absolutely anything to help and protect that Sweet Spirit that was entrusted to my care. I would gladly give my life for this child. The overwhelming love and responsibility that swept over me was a very humbling experience. I thought I knew what loves was, but when I held Evette for the first time my understanding of love got about a billion times deeper.

I repeated “This is my baby girl….. This is my daughter….. This is my Evette….. ” over and over and over, introducing her to myself, my husband, and all the helping midwives. I couldn’t believe that she was finally here and how perfect she was.

Evette is an angel and has drastically changed our lives for the better! She has the sweetest demeanor and teaches me daily how to be a better person. As I am typing this one handed and holding my precious sleeping baby I am reminded to treasure every second we share together. I love being a Mother.

Heidi

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{Guest Post} Dear sweet baby girl…

How I anxiously await your arrival. I already love you and can’t wait to tell you in person. I have watched your mother and father fall in love with you. It has been sweet to watch them prepare themselves for parenthood and to see the great desire they have to be good parents.

I remember the day I delivered your father, T. J. It was a difficult day for me as it was the day they were laying to rest my mother who had passed away only six weeks after giving birth to my little brother Allen. I was afraid and sad and missing my mom. But your dad came into my life bringing me great joy and comfort…a gift from Heaven. Your dad is my only child with blue eyes and while young, blonde hair just like my mother. I believe she sent a piece of her with him as they passed each other through the veil.

T. J. was a calm, happy baby which was such a blessing as I was struggling emotionally and physically trying to recover from having a c-section. I wouldn’t have my dear mother coming to be with me after his birth and T. J. made it easy to move forward.

There is no greater joy than that of being a mother. I rejoice that the opportunity has been mine. It is the most wonderful of callings. Little one…you are so loved by many. You are a child of God and a gift from Heaven to us here who await your arrival. We shall meet soon and it will be a joyful day.

Till we meet and with all my love, your Grandmother,

Kelly Derrick

{Kelly with Holly, who will be our baby’s cousin}

{Last Thanksgiving with T.J.’s family}

 

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“Turkey day is the most fun day!” -Martha Stewart

  1. I can’t sleep very much anymore. I sleep for like four or five hours then wake up. That of course makes me extremely tired and so then after a couple of hours, I’m ready for another round of sleep. It’s awful and each cycle is filled with vivid dreams of the baby. Yesterday I dreamt that the baby finally started to breast-feed, she fell out of her cradle (that was awful), and then was old enough within a couple of days to play in the bathtub with those bath marker things. Bizarre stuff.
  2. Everyday I hope there will be snow. I think it’s because we have our tree up now and I feel like, if there’s snow out there, it doesn’t make me as crazy for putting the tree up before Thanksgiving. So, this 50 degree weather is really out of place.
  3. T.J. and I are contemplating so hard about getting an Xbox with Kinect for Christmas. It will be really inexpensive at Walmart on Black Friday. We never buy big things like that though, heck I won’t even buy jeans that are more than $30. BUT I LOVE THE KINECT! It is so much fun, a great workout, and could be our gift to each other for Christmas. On the other hand, it still is a lot of money. And we have a baby on the way that will cost a lot. Tell me what to do!
  4. My cold is almost gone! It only took three weeks.
  5. My doctor said no progress still down there with the baby stuff. So, I said, “Well, at least it won’t come on Thanksgiving.” And then he replied, “You can say that on Friday.” Being a ticking time bomb is kind of crazy.
  6. I get to make my pies today for Thanksgiving! Can’t wait! Which reminds me, how do YOU say “pecan”?
  7. The news is on in the background and it’s showing all the holiday traffic and snowy roads through the country. It’s making me kind of happy that we are staying here and not dealing with it. But I sure am missing my family!
  8. Did I buy eggnog at the store yesterday? You better believe it. (Don’t worry Mom, it’s lowfat).
  9. Yesterday I got a check in the mail from Winder Farms. I only worked there for a couple of weeks back in March and I already got paid for that time. So, it was completely out of the blue and so random. Seriously, it was so awesome that I started crying immediately. hahaha, oh I’m ridiculous.
  10. Random story: Last week I tried to wake T.J. up for work at 7 but he was up until 5 am working on projects for school. So, he told me to text his boss for him to tell her she’d be late. I asked what I should say and he replied, “Fun house mirrors.” I said, “T.J. that doesn’t make sense.” He said, “They always make sense.”
  11. Martha Stewart is on the Today show. Some of the reporters went to her house for a Thanksgiving dinner and to see her farm. How many people do you think help Martha? Does she even help anymore? She just said she is grateful for her grandchild… she has kids? Do you think she always was amazing at crafts? Why is she wearing leggings on the show? SO MANY QUESTIONS!
  12. I can’t wait to see The Muppets! I laughed so hard when I first saw this clip…
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Holly Samantha Derrick

A new baby has come to the Derrick family today. Lindsay, T.J.’s brother’s wife, had her baby this afternoon. We got to visit them this evening and, boy, is she a doll.

The new parents!

The happy mother, Lindsay!

You better believe I cried while holding her. Two more weeks, two more weeks!

So much hair! Oh my goodness, and she has curls!

The new Grandpa!

Her cute little feet!

Getting practice holding a newborn!

They told us they wanted grandkids… I don’t think they knew they’d get three within a year!

One down, two to go!

Congrats, Dustin and Lindsay! You two will be amazing parents to little Holly Samantha.

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“Newborns are Slippery.”

Last Saturday, my friends threw me a baby shower and it was just lovely, plus it was great to catch up with old friends. We got a lot of gifts, including a diaper jeanie, playmat, clothes, and books. All we need now is the baby!

Check out this spread… don’t I have the greatest friends?

Thanks to Hannah, Erin, and Amanda for all that they did! The baby and I appreciate it!

Oh, and to go along with the title of this post… make sure you watch this clip from The Office: Baby Shower episode.