12 Weeks: It is what God gave you time for.

I kind of feel like I was just announcing the pregnancy of Baby Eva but here we are again! I am pregnant! We found out on January 9th. That weekend I was a HOT MESS. Seriously. I cried so much. My emotions were just crazy (more than normal, even more than pregnancy normal) because I wasn’t too sure about how I felt about this whole thing. Since having Eva, I really couldn’t see myself having another kid. I mean, I LOVE Eva! But that was the thing… I love her SO much I just couldn’t imagine ever having enough love for another child. And I love our life so much, especially recently, I know how to be a mom now! I know how to have a child in NYC. I have a child that sleeps for 12-14 hours through the night. Being a mom right now is pretty easy and enjoyable! I know this life and I didn’t want to rock it. So, we kept prolonging the inevitable.

There were a million things we kept using as excuses as why it wasn’t the right time, in addition to those I just mentioned. Work, housing, money, blah blah blah. But ultimately we knew we needed to grow our family and it came down to this quote by Rachel Jankovic, later quoted by Neil L. Anderson that I have shared before:

Motherhood is not a hobby, it is a calling. You do not collect children because you find them cuter than stamps. It is not something to do if you can squeeze the time in. It is what God gave you time for.

IMG_7403I’ve had to remind myself of that quote a bit this pregnancy, especially in the beginning. This is the right thing to do. This is what life is all about. Eva has changed our lives completely and made us happier than we ever knew possible, so I can’t imagine how it’ll be with another little one! It will be different, and sometimes hard. But it will be great and rewarding! And as far as having enough love for the second child, I’ve heard from everyone that your love grows, not divides. I am still nervous about how it’ll all work here in the city, but we will figure it out. Can’t wait!

(Unflattering but perfect photo taken as soon as that sneaky second line showed up on the pregnancy test.)

11 replies
  1. Meghan Caldwell
    Meghan Caldwell says:

    Congratulations! So happy! I totally understand… it’s such a hard thing. We have 2 kids now and I am seriously happy with having two kids. But, I also really feel like motherhood is a calling and we need to have another one (at some point… not just yet haha!). It’s a battle fighting the “worldly” feelings and the spiritual feelings. You are amazing for following those promptings! Good luck with your pregnancy, and seriously – having two kids is the best! I love my little crazies like nothing else in the whole wide world. And, my favorite part about having two kids is how much they love each other. They are just over 3 years apart and I was worried the distance was a little far for them to really play, but they LOVE each other so much!! I love how they hug and kiss each other. It’s the best. Well, that was a long comment. So happy for you! 🙂

  2. Camille
    Camille says:

    I’m so excited for you!!! And it’s true – I have no idea how it works but there is plenty of love to go around. And then seeing Eva and the baby together is just going to be the best, especially as they get older and interact! So much fun ahead! I hope you’re feeling well!

  3. Sarah
    Sarah says:

    I love that photo of you just finding out! So much emotion. It makes me teary-eyed just seeing your reaction. That quote is so perfect. You are such an inspiration, Katie!

  4. Gabriel
    Gabriel says:

    on behalf of Allie and I. We are very happy for you and your family. We wish you great joy and happiness out of this new chapter in your life. Thank you for this inspirational story you shared.

  5. Carlee
    Carlee says:

    I cant tell you how much I love this picture! And your news! You are the best mom and will LOVE having two, maybe not right away….but you will. Can’t wait to hear if its a boy or girl!!

  6. Marlee
    Marlee says:

    Yay! Babies! But really. I had my second 17 months after my first and it was insane but it’s calmed down. But now I’m pregnant with my third and it’s so much fun to see Ivy (almost 3) get excited for the baby. She wasn’t even aware of June’s entrance into her life (which was good and bad) but she frequently tells strangers how she is having a baby William and she is going to give him baths. It melts me. I think the hardest thing in the world is leaping into the unknown, especially when you finally have a grip on things. But you will be a better person for it, I promise. You will find out what you are capable of and it’s so much more than you imagined. Congratulations!

  7. Alyse
    Alyse says:

    Congratulations!!! It is definitely no picnic and I remember having similar feelings of how to love another kid the same as you feel about your first, but somehow your heart grows and you can’t imagine life without them!

  8. Kiley
    Kiley says:

    Congratulations! I was really nervous about having a second as well. I had to keep reminding myself that a sibling would give Addis the kind of relationship I never could. And it is true! He and Swede love to play together (mostly


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